Not “letting it go” …

There are a few Posts that come my email way, that I think have greater Lightbulb-Moment significance in the grand scheme of “PACE member things”- and though this one may not speak of Culture , Fashion or just Art for Art sake – it is, in its way , full of all those better things , because it comes from a place where these very concepts are inspiring someone to remain in a safe place – where their world is constantly ” enlightened and enlivened ”

See Miss Farrelly , you made it ” all the way ” – Welcome back and Welcome into SPACE.

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Eleanor Farrelly – SPACE entry blog

Those of you who know me well will know that, much like this blog, I am always late. I’m literally late for everything.
So instead of seeing myself as having left pace and then returned I’m just going to see myself as being late for rehearsals starting back!

The reason I don’t want to be seen as “coming back” is because I don’t want to be treated differently. I’m just as equal to everyone else I’m here to learn, improve and act the same as all of you.

But obviously I did decide to leave pace. I decided that as I had left school that it was time for me to leave pace and move on into the big bad world; get a job, go traveling, go to uni the following year.  And that me being at pace for my last year here in sunny Paisley before moving to Dundee wasn’t an option. But as you can all see I am back.

I know that leaving pace will never feel right and it will never really feel like the right time to go but I just knew it wasn’t my time.  When I wasn’t here people were telling me all about capmon and the trip to Stratford and all I was thinking was I want to do that so badly. And thinking about it there is no reason that I couldn’t be. I think I had just got into my head that because everyone else my age had left that meant I had to as well. But with a bit of encouragement from some of you lovely people I gave Mhairi a wee email and here I am.

I came back because I love pace and I love to act.

The things that are going on in pace right now are so exciting and new and I don’t think enough us appreciate how lucky we are to be a part of what pace offers. There is nothing like this anyway where else in the UK. How many times have you gone into school and heard someone say “oh yeah I’m putting on a fashion show” . It’s such a unique opportunity to be part of and to not fully put everything into it would just be a waste in my eyes. I think pace is such an amazing and special place one that is extremely close to my heart. I have been a member of since I was about 6 years old and, as cheesy as it may sound, I wouldn’t be the person I am today without it so if I can stay here a year longer then I am going to.

I have always loved to act. The feeling I get when I stand on stage-there is nothing else that compares to it. I feel like that last year I started to love being on stage in a new and different way and I want to carry that on this year because once I move for uni I don’t know when I’ll get the opportunity again.

But I want to make it clear that I didn’t come back “just for something to do” and also
I didn’t come back for friendship. I have met some amazing people here that I know I will be friends with for many years to come and would have remained friends with regardless if I was a member of pace or not.  I came back for the right reasons: to learn, act and improve.

I can’t tell you how happy and relieved I feel to be back. I’m not going to lie, I did a little mini dance in my bedroom when I got the email to say I was welcome to come back. I think I can say that this year I’m just going to take full advantage of every opportunity that comes my way and just have an absolute ball!

And also sorry for being late!

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